Now that I am so full of love, allow me to post these love songs I love so much lately. Enjoy with me!

1. Landon Pigg - Falling in Love At A Coffee Shop

2. Joshua Radin - They Bring Me To You

3. Angus & Julia Stone - Big Jet Plane

4. Rosi Golan - Think Of Me

5. Lady Antebellum - Just A Kiss

So, I have a boyfriend now. It is such a surprise indeed, for myself especially. I knew this guy from Cheryl about half year ago. We exchanged contacts, but nothing more. It was until I already in Bali that he contacted me first. It was last week.

We developed such a great communication for the past week and last night, he declared to be serious with me. I honestly didn't know how to feel or think. I do like him, a lot. And I do want him. But to be with him? To be in a relationship? Man, it's such a life I've left a long time ago!

But anyway, I stopped thinking. Instead, I feel. And I feel loved. Ilham gave me so much love and when I look at him, I know that I'm safe with him. It is so strange by the way, because I came to Bali not intended to be attached to anyone. I plan to go solo.

God has another plan indeed. He sent me to Bali, which wasn't on my plan before. But I believe this is His way, for I am fully blessed ever since I am here. And now he sent me this gorgeous sweet guy named Ilham Agustian. Out of nowhere, he just suddenly popped up to love me. Strange, yet is so real.

Fia told me before, that after I passed thru the "test" of last year's hard times, I will rise this year. She was right. There would be a new guy for me, tho I never believed I could ever be with someone I hardly know, but he exists now. I really don't know how to react for this. Surprised, happy, flattered, not believing... but overjoyed in total.

I am still totally jetlagged for this stuff. I don't think I am ready for another relationship, let alone long distance one. The fact that he has a different religion and he is three years younger made me think twice, but to see the love he is offering is something that I can't resist.

So yea, I'll just go on with him for now, see if he's a real thing or just a wanderer passing thru my path. Either way, he makes me so happy, so loved and so blessed. I know that he is sent from Above. I know, because God always works in the most strangest, unbelievable, unthinkable way. That's why I don't think too much, I just follow on His path. :)

Oh well. Say it was my bad that I was wandering alone in Kuta Center last Sunday. I didn't know what to do, but Sinners (bartender at Brewers) invited me over, so I was walking thru the street and window shopping there on the way to Brewers.

So, I went to one of the Makassi shop and found a unique pairs of earrings. I tried them on and a guy was commenting. Apparently, he is gay. Found out that we both came from Jakarta, so before I know it he already instructed his assistant to come and joined me on a walk. That happened so fast!

We went to Brewers and had two towers of beers as compliment from Sinners. We left the place at around 10 p.m. and continued to Jl. Dhyanapura, which they mentioned as the most happening bar in Bali. So I bought them and went there with them.

Okay. So, the street has gay bars there. I went to Balijoe, one of the most crowded there. They perform strippers and dancers, made it entertaining to all guests who came. I was introduced to almost all of the waiters, dancers and to some of the guests there.

But in the end it brought me so much drama in the past two days. Stripper and bartender are texting me and the gays are developing too much emotional drama around me. I don't stand such dramas, I came to Bali to avoid such thing. But they are all good, nice people actually.


I love having friends and they are all  kind to me. It's just the drama that made me don't want to be attached with them. It's such a colorful life I'm having here, but what I seek is tranquility. So I went yoga with Tante Siska at Prana on Tuesday, having the Sivananda Yoga instructed by Mr. Putu. It is such a detox after a crazy night I had on Sunday. I just love Bali so much! :)

Last night, Asiong fetched me and we went to Goodys at Legian beach for a pizza dinner. They got the lovely meat lover pizza with view of the beach. It was really a romantic place with good food and great service. We spent about two hours there, sharing stories and gossips. Then we moved to Brewers, which is now one of the most happening place in Legian.

Apparently my friend Abing from Bandung has a cousin who works there, so I got introduced to the bartender, Sinners, by BBM. He is a very friendly guy and he made me and Asiong daiquiri for each of us. The bar, however, serves all kinds of food and beverages with beer in it. It's very special. We stayed till about 12.30 a.m. then went to eat rice porridge near my crib before going home.


Anyway, I went to Veranda Café at Jl. Hayam Wuruk, Denpasar, the other day. I really like the simple minimalist building with touch of wood here and there. The owner, Popo Danes, is the famous Balinese architect. It was such a delightful culinaire tour I am having here, thanks to my kind friends.

OK. So I got the job.. Yay!

I am now working as the personal assistant for a real estate development consultant in Petitenget area. It is quite nice actually, because I can use both of my expertise in interior/architecture and in communicating with people. Plus, I am working alone here, so I can learn a lot from my boss. Such a nice thing that I found the job (and that he's hiring me).

Anyway, boss is going back to his hometown tonight, so I was dismissed in the afternoon. Sun was shining so brightly in the sky so I hurried go back home by bike (yes, I am now riding a matic motorbike!) and got changed.

With the bikini and mini flare dress I went to the beach and stopped at some point in Kuta beach. Just like the last time I was on the beach, took only less than 10 minutes until someone approaches me. This time, a Batak guy named Hari. Kinda ruined my plan to sunbathe, but it was raining soon anyway, so I followed him to the lifeguard house.

There I met several other beach boys and also the lifeguards: Gede, Nyoman and Wayan. Thank God they have all different names, because Balinese has only 16 names in total. But Hari stayed the longest with me. He took me to Warung Malang at Jl. Pattimura for dinner, which was nice, and we shared some stories.

Actually, he did almost all of the conversation. He said he can see aura and read hands. He said I was shining in bright blue when he first talked with me. It means I was full of love. Well it was kinda true, because I was so much in a good spirit with the sun today after days of rain. And I am also in love with this island, which brings me such a good vibe.

Later more, Hari said that I am exactly his type of a girl, who knows God and is smart. Actually, this was said from another guy about two weeks ago, just before I left Bandung. He said his search for love has ended. Oh, really? Is this how the guys nowadays flirting? Well, I am for sure enjoying the compliment, but I really don't feel anything for them.

Anyway, Hari said that my eyes are beautiful. And my "luck" is in my eyebrows. Well well, we are open to anyone's input, aren't we? I am happy for getting to know so many people here. I have known three hip-hop dancers the other day when I went jogging. So it really is a good thing actually, for getting a job in just a week after I came here and get to know more people everyday.

Hari asked me one thing tonight.
"What are you doing in Bali actually?"
Because people come here only for two reasons, he said. One is for holiday, and the other is to runaway. I told him I was looking for peace.
"No. You are already at peace," he said, looking at my aura and character.
So I said, "It is to keep the peace and life balance that is hard."

He went silent by this, and I was surprised myself. But it is true. I just got my peace and life balance, and I know that living in Jakarta or Bandung will drag me back to my old life. I want this peace to stay inside me. I want my relationship with God is close and intense like this. I went to Denpasar to go for a charismatic pray in St. Joseph church with Oom Irwin and Tante Susan yesterday. It is nice to be close with God all the time.

So, yea maybe that is the reason why I am now in Bali. I see people pray a lot here, both Hindu and Catholic. Well I dunno about other religions, but Hindustan are surely very religious here, which attracts people from around the world the most. But to my surprise is that daily mass are being held twice a day at 6 a.m. and 6 p.m., with mass for the divine mercy every 3 p.m. Plus other activities full from Monday to Sunday, both in FX church (here in Kuta, about 300m from my place) and in St. Joseph in Denpasar.

It is really nice to pray here in Bali. Perhaps that's why there is some kind of peacefulness I feel in every part of the island I've visited. Maybe that, or perhaps it's because I am already at peace like what Hari said. Anyway, I am so blessed to meet so many kind people here. I believe God will take care of me ;)

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I know that almost everybody was surprised when they hear I am now staying in Bali. Out of nowhere and without precaution, I suddenly decided to go. I don't understand this myself. All I know that I had this strong calling during the retreat I had last month to go to Bali. I just knew that I had to go.

Maybe because of these:

1. I need to live by myself now, being independent of my own for I am nearly 28 now.
2. I have always dreamed of going away from Jakarta-Bandung. This is my first step.
3. Bali is not as far as Melbourne. At least this is still in the country and is affordable.
4. I have always loved this island. The culture, the architecture, the view, the atmosphere...
5. I have got to push myself to the limit, see what else I can do besides what I have done before.

So, yea, let's call this as a brand new life for me. I really need this in my life, while my other friends are mostly get in marriages. I need to fix some aspects in my life, and I also need to find out why I am here now. God must have have something great behind all of this, made me come by an interview and got the job canceled once I got the place to stay... and staying jobless until now.

But I know that God has always been with me since the first flight. He made me met Tante Siska, a friend of Mom's who had been very kind to me--helping me with almost all of the things here until I am fully prepared. God had led me to Mrs. Ketut as well, for she is very selective on accepting people who stay here and believes in the unseen forces around. She said it is destiny that I came here and meet her.

I also know that my late father is here with me. It's like almost all of the places that I visit here reminds me of him... perhaps because he had stayed in Denpasar for couple of years back then and we had our last holiday with the family here. But indeed, it is really like he's here around me, leading me on every step that I take. I can feel him close, I even can imagine him communicating with people around.

Well, anyway, I do feel at home now, even that the bathroom is at the other part of the house and there is no aircon... Mrs. Ketut said, the room will chill when our head is chilled. But once our heart/head is heated, the room will also feel hot. It's a good thing, I guess.

But, yes. I love this place. I love Mrs. Ketut's family, with their humble heart and modest way of living. I am gonna stay long here, I know!

I spent a whole day yesterday at Kuta beach and Legian by foot. I met Lita and Oscar at around 3 p.m. at Warung Made where I had pancake and cappuccino, then we walked along Poppies Lane I and Kuta beach road until the sun set. I left them at Pullman Hotel lobby then walked the way home alone.

I stopped at some bar for dinner and to avoid the heavy rain, then stopped at another to have a glass of wine while listening to some live music. I got home at 11.30 and fell asleep right away.

I woke up at 6 as usual and walked to the Fransiscus Xaverius Kuta Church for 7 a.m. Sunday mass. It was really a nice church they built. I love the serenity I felt inside of it, it was nearly the peaceful feeling I got inside of the Kapela in Cikanyere. I love this church, and the fact that it is located only 300m from my place just makes it better!


I spent my day with Mrs. Ketut's family. Her sister-in-law, Made Sari, was visiting and helped her making preparation for their prayer. Her niece, Dayu (daughter of descendant of Bagus, a higher kasta in Hinduism), was also there after the Scout Girl at school. It was really a nice tradition in Bali they are having. I am lovin' it!