Another Victoria's Secrets

I just finished reading Emily the Strange's The Lost Days and get strangely excited about it. I'm wondering how many Indonesian read the book. I mean, come on, seriously, this book shoulda arrive into my world since my adolescent years, like 13 years ago when I was 13 years old. I'm just feeling rather too old to read it now but then again it's all okay since I just had Gaiman's Dangerous Alphabet recently, so ya perhaps this counts better. I strangely love this book so much!

Anyway my aunt told me not too much into this kinda book (read: dark/edgy ones) to keep me from getting strange myself. Breaking news: I am strange already. Like, I've been strange all my life, if anyone ever know. It's just that it's disguised perfectly from the outside no one knows I've been mental all this time. LOL. Well maybe all 'half-bloods' are like me, or maybe not. It's just so hard for me to live normally like anyone else here while I am torn between three different bloods. Tormenting yet quite fun, actually.

By the way, I'm missing Mr. Patrick Willem--another 'half-blood'--so badly I can't wait to meet him soon cuz so far, he's the best living pensieve I've ever met all my life (read: he's my best friend.) He's like the only person who understands all my 'strange' language and it works vice versa. Unfortunately, he's living in Bandung and we don't talk much on the messenger. Fortunately, things are going for a change quite soon. I'm desperately praying and looking forward to that ;)

One more gorgeous things are these unbranded glasses Mom bought for me and my siblings. Got them all from some store in Bandung, these geeky wayfarer-y spectacles are flat for normal eyes and how can I not love the glasses' cases? They're kind of LV-ish but what I care the most is the fact that it's from a hard case it won't damage the glasses inside even if I put it in my messy bag. This is just perfect for my geeky look.


And the sunglasses are mentally hype! Love it to the max (since I don't longer have one, damaged all previous my sunglasses due to recklessness--and how I love the skulls graphic on both sides!) Aren't Mom's the coolest mother or what? She just knows the trend. And just the best Mom ever. I'm just so damn blessed ;)

I just came home from another glamorous wedding tonight. It's Astarra Daenuwy and Anastasya and I attended the party with Mom and Clemy. It was held in Darmawangsa Hotel at 7 p.m. It was such a beautiful decoration and a very huge wedding party. Everyone there invited are rich and important people, I could tell by how they're dressed up and by the way they move. Even Prabowo, Agum Gumelar and other people from government were there. While people were partying, my sister and I are having fun with the yummy food and camera.


And just among those beautifully dressed people, I was thinking if I ever gonna have a wedding like this, but I failed to imagine that and sticking to my dream wed to be as simple as it can be. Nevertheless, if I am a daughter to such important person like Anastasya is, this kind of wedding is definitely a must. For the glamorous level, this one was beautiful and simply sweet. But then again, this isn't me and where I belong, so I had fun just to sip a bit of it.

No one can stop my affection to books, dunno why. My excitement just doubled up whenever I see a good book and able to buy it. Yesterday I went to PIM and visited Periplus. I just couldn't resist the temptation to bring these two home, tho there were still others I eliminated. By the love to Neil Gaiman and Emily the Strange, I am ready to be drown in these soon!

I'm soo happy today for we (my sister and I) went to ITC Kuningan to shop around and found many stuff we love after 5 hours. I'll just share them here then.

I went to Senayan City yesterday with my sister and Oma. We accidentally bumped into Yodi's family who just buried their cousin Reynato, who died earlier this week, and the whole family was there for lunch. Yodi opened the Tortuga, special for its spicy ribs. I ended hanging out with the family for couple of hours, then joined Oma and Clemy again after that.

It was such a relieve to find this pair of stretch blue pants in Stradivarius, remembering that I'm lack with trousers lately and my only jeans left is the torn acid jeans from Pull & Bear. I need to have something more decent for more formal occasion, so there I bought the pants. Somehow I just couldn't resist the temptation on buying the tosca scarf, the one rather similar to Rebecca's in Confession of a Shopaholic. I love how it add up some color to my pale skin and I think I'm gonna wear it quite often from now on :)

This morning I awoke by the news of the death of Steve Paul Jobs, visionary founder of Apple, Inc. and the mastermind behind Pixar Studios and board member of Walt Disney Company. His great creations and products are everywhere around me now, especially the MacBook and pink iPod Shuffle that it brought me a huge sadness when I found out he was dead due to pancreatic cancer at 56 years old.

I had never known him personally, of course, but I am very sad indeed. His death is surely mourned by the whole world, thanks to his great revolution in technology via Apple products that affected many fields, especially on design and music. I really don't know what kind of tech world I'm living in without an Apple product in it.

As more of my friends are getting married lately (it's been at least one couple per week since the beginning of September), more were dead, as well. Last Saturday my Mom's cousin, Uncle Nico, passed away due to his lung disease, then Reynato, cousin of Yodi, Yoan and Andy, passed away from the HIV last Monday. The latest was Uncle Johnny, cousin-in-law to Mom, died last Tuesday after his several times' dialysis.

I watched this movie with my sister last night: A Little Bit of Heaven. Marley (Kate Hudson) was diagnosed to have an ass cancer and living her last months of life with the most valuable things in her life, after having just fun all her life before. Then the question came to me: if you were at the Marley's situation, would you hold on to love, or push it away in case to "save" someone's heart?

Further more, if you were Julian (Gael García Bernal), would you stick around the one you love, or leave them to face the death alone? Maybe I would try to keep love away to keep the one I love from getting hurt if I were Marley, but if I were being Julian, I would definitely stay around. But then again, it's such a lie that people can keep the one they love away, so even if when I'm at Marley's situation, I guess I'll give in to love eventually.

I am now more or less at Julian's position, loving someone who is slowly dying. Terrible things is that he pushes me away from his life and didn't give me any chance to make us both happy (for I'm pretty sure he's feeling the same way). He's trying to "keeping people's life safe" by not being near him. WTF. I mean, how can you save someone's life when you are tearing your and their hearts apart?

I'd follow Julian and Marley here, holding on to love, no matter how small time we have, but it's not the quantity that define how great a love is. Love is whatever you are feeling about a person, regardless how dull the future on being together seem to be, regardless how the rest of the world are against it. Most importantly, love can not be pushed away. The way one feel it is the way it is. We can't control it.

I am wondering where life would direct me to after this. If I'm about to stick around this dying guy, would it really ruin my world? Would it damage my life? How if it makes my life worthwhile instead? Why don't we just take the chances and see where it lead us to? Why are we so afraid of the unknown? Guess we'll never know until we try, right?

I've spent almost a week now at my aunt's place in South Jakarta, started last Wednesday when I came from Bandung. I had to babysit my 13 y.o. cousin and drove her here and there. I ended up sick now, had an almost 15-hours hibernation last night to pay off all the tiresome for the last couple of weeks.

It was such an exhausting weekend indeed, for I had to drive all the way from the south to Kemayoran in the north to attend the food expo at JiExpo. It was about 1.5 hours driving there at 1 p.m. and a total 3 hours of driving back at 5.30 p.m. and continued the night chatting with Rachelle till 3.30 a.m. for she was staying over.

I woke up at 7 a.m. the next day and had to attend Lita's holy matrimony at the west side of the city and drove my cousin to PIM before going to the Sampoerna building for Lita's wedding reception. That night I drove my sister back to the west, picked up my cousin near PIM and went back to Cipete. Thank God I didn't have to wake up too early on Sunday, but still it was another long driving day.

I drove Angel to her dance school, met with Herdi and Rachelle at Dia.Lo.Gue, Kemang for their interview with Atiqah Hasiholan, then back to the dance school, spent the afternoon at Marché, PS, then went to Dharmais Funeral Home to pay last visit to Mom's cousin, Oom Nico who died the day before due to heart disease. It was just a super-tiring weekend for me.


But during the tiresome, there are always exciting stuff in between. Apart from Lita's grand wedding, I also met new friends from Herdi and Rachelle. They are Advan and Ojan, both are from creative industries and it's always nice to meet such nice new friends like them along the way :) Thank God for giving me so many friends!

Last Saturday, one of my best friends, Lita, was getting married. I attended both of the holy matrimony (with my cousin Angelika) at MKK Church and the reception (with my sister Clemency) at Sampoerna Strategic Building. It was such a glamour wedding and I'm so glad to see my woman looked so happy when she finally tied the knot with Oscar.

It was funny how people were asking why didn't I be her maid of honor or bridesmaid, for we are best friends for almost 10 years now. Actually Mom didn't allow me to become a bridesmaid no more, because there are some saying that it could make my love line heavier in Chinese beliefs. Well, buy it or not, I surely don't wanna end up like Jane at 27 Dresses.


Anyway, I was so happy because Livia and Ester could make it to Jakarta, tho Irma couldn't go out of her house for the next two weeks due to her post-natal condition. I also met Ria and her mother, W+Yoe Lee, Denny+Christine and daughter Charissa, and surely Donny+Nina and daughter Daniella. I didn't meet anybody else there tho I stayed there till the last minutes, perhaps because I was focusing myself with my best friends around.