Another Victoria's Secrets

I can’t understand guys. Well I just chat with my latest ex today. He called me in MSN and we had a little chat. It was kind of shocking me cuz this was the first time he ever tried to talk with me after what we had in the past. He asked whether I have a boyfriend now… I said yes… and he started to boast his girl… well boy, I don’t care!

He was the one who left me for this girl and he now dares to boast me how perfect, adorable, lovable this girl is to him. He kept on talking about their plan on backpacking to Germany and France next Dec. Well I guess this isn’t too important for me to know it, but I just nodded.

But he didn’t stop. He started changing his image in the messenger window display with the girl’s face, then their pose of kissing each other… he really showed off, so not important eh!?

I guess he was jealous of me and io. But this also isn’t rational. I mean, he was the one who dumped me. It makes me who supposed to show him off that I am now moving on, not vice versa. This is getting funnier… and he’s just making himself a fool for me now. Thankfully he dumped me months ago so I can have a MUCH better man now.

Btw I was sort of angry about certain guys. But I just dun wanna think about it too complicated. It just sometimes they can’t control their hormones pushing and it just bothers my ears. I am not the kind of girl who is anti-sex or anything. I can enjoy the dirty talks too sometimes. But I am anti-rape and anti-sexual abuse. I just can’t understand why can’t they keep it just with guys? Why should they bother us—girls—with those sexual abuse thing? It just makes me hate them more and more…

Sometimes I think of hating all guys. Because of one single unimportant guy treated me not right, I could’ve become a dyke… thankfully I have a boyfriend who loves me and cares for me. If not, perhaps I could hate men all my life. Maybe past really influence my perspective now. I had a bad memory about men and their sex-think thing and it really makes me trauma though it’s not very obvious. But I want to stand tall and fight against my bad memory or negative thinking about it. They are not really important and I just have to concentrate on what I have now.

I got Mario by my side and I am really glad for that. Still have to adapt since we lived in 2 different worlds and now the blending is sort of shocking. But I still pray for our story to keep on continuing. We have special stories of past and the reuniting was surprising too. I hope he feels the same way that I do and this is not only temporary cuz I am tired of broken heart and being hurt. Lord please take care of our relationship =p

I am now building a small design company with my neighbor and also a classmate, Tessa. This is not just about working and competing, we are enjoying this from the very first moment. It’s not only working relationship that we build here, we also build friendship besides the partnership (remember the film Bandidas? Maria and Sara are partners but befriends too)

Actually I had a bad experience with blending friendship and partnership. My former partner made me kinda trauma with making a design company, but after befriends with Tessa for about a year, I think this one worth trying. Plus Tessa has all the ability that I dun have, while I complete her in another way.

But besides jobs we have fun too, we share stories, we enjoy hanging out at Ciwalk, with good food and great ambient, we love books, and almost all the time I had TV camera shoots me whenever I am with her. And now, we meet celebrities and go to concerts, events, and start acting… what a great intermezzo.

Last week we met Budjana, Balawan and Tohpati for their TriSum concert at Hyatt Bandung. We got special access (by who else if not Kang Iyu?) to their hotel room after the performance. It was great, the whole guitar collaboration. I admire Balawan for his magic fingers… and Budjana was sweet to us when we asked for pic and his autograph. We didn’t get Tohpati’s autograph, I guess he was really tired but that was okay, the experience was fun tho.

I am now in another peak of happiness. I have great life now, with nice sweet and cute boyfriend who loves me, and all other things that support me… also with Kang Iyu with all of his access to the entertainment world, I have nothing more to ask. I just wanna ask God to keep this happiness to stay true, I want my partnership and friendship with Tessa goes well and long-term. Perhaps we can both enter the celebrity world with our design background… well who knows??

Whoa!! I really had a great week! After I got sick in the beginning of the week, I got a job and I went to the resto in Wednesday for Nina ‘Warna’ Tamam’s birthday celebration. I and Tessa were introduced to one of Hard Rock FM Bandung’s boss. Kang Iyu—his name—said he knows a lot of celebs in Jakarta and I told him to let me know if he got Fedi Nuril in town. Well, I got his number—and the guy from infotainment’s too—and he promised to take us when he got a celeb here.

That very night he sms me, told me that he’d got Fedi Nuril in town the next day. I told him I’d come—since I really like the celeb—but I’d ask Tessa first then. I was kinda worried at first since this is a new guy I know from the entertainment world, I barely know him and he’s about 40 years old, a divorce single bald chubby guy. I dunno, really confused but Tessa said she’d come with me, so the next day after do my homework Kang Iyu fetched us to the Fame Station. We got another guy from Harley Davidson Jakarta with us, his name was Fikar. And we were treated for dinner there, what good food. And after chatting for about 3 hours, Fedi and other Garasi crew came out from their rooms for the show. They were performing by 12 a.m. in Fame Station. I was introduced and took pics and chat with Fedi, I was very happy. So happy I couldn’t think too much. I forgot to ask his number or to offer he something that could make him remember me. So stupid!

But I told the Fame Station’s manager, Mr. Jacky, that I was a big fan. So the next day—it was Friday—Mr. Jacky told me he got Fedi’s number. But I had to come to the club to take the number. So after such a hectic day (traveling all day printing, hanging out at Ciwalk, fetching Je’s cousin Nabila at Dago, dropping by at Vigie’s for her daughter Dea’s 2nd birthday party and finally making the project with Tessa) I was fetched by W and Denny and their co-workers and joined them to had dinner at Gardujati before came to Fame Station. They had an event for Gigi’s new album launching plus the I-Radio’s launching too there. I joined the gank not more than 1 hour and Kang Iyu drove me home. I was kinda scared and uncomfortable. He was still a stranger with age of 40. He could be anyone, he could do anything. I barely know him. But he was talking about his father’s words about treating a girl. And he was learning Chikung and everything. I sort of believe him, dunno yet but so far so good. He treated me well.

Saturday, I got classes and after the workshop of visual merchandising, I went home with Tessa, had a nap for 2 hours before we went to Ciwalk. We dropped Clemy at d’palm first then I separated with my parents since I met so many friends there (as usual). There were celebs everywhere at Ciwalk that night. Oscar Lawalata (I am still curious about the guy sitting next to him. I was quite sure it was Renville my friend from DKV Binus but well maybe he forgotten me), Marcell and Dee, VJ Rianti (if I wasn’t mistaken) and others…

Then an old friend sms me, told me he was in town. He was a friend from my elementary years. We met only 1x in the last 3 years perhaps. I am not sure since he is now studying in Binus, my former university. He was with 2 friends from Binus too. We hang out at Starbucks then Ester and Ko Yayank came and we moved to Score to play billiard. Then Livia, Ian and Ivan came, Tessa and Kang Iyu showed up too. It was kinda fun but at about midnight Ester went home, we moved again to Embassy for the FHM Nite. I got some free passes again from Hendrik.

After about half an hour, Livia & the gank went home, I continued dancing with my friends and Tessa. After they went home too, there were left only me and Tessa and the Hard Rock crew and I met my schoolmate from MADC there, Ernest and his brother and friends who were incidentally friends of Gama and Riri and my other party goer friends. I came home with Kang Iyu and Tessa and group from MRA Jakarta. There were Maddy who lives in Tm. Alfa only a block away from my aunt’s home.

I woke up kinda early on Sunday then I went to Plaza Dago with my parents and sister. My old friend Mario had L-Men Manhunt Competition there and I came to watch. But it was kinda late. I also went shopping some surfing stuff for 80% discount.

We had lunch at Hyper-square where Ester’s future sister in-law opens a Korean food canteen. We were chatting for about 2.5 hours and Irma, Martin, Irene and Dody joined us for 1 hour. I and my family went to the church for 5 p.m. mass. After dinner I went to Ciwalk again, the 2nd time in the week I went to Embassy. And also I went 2x to Fame Station to notice. The L-Men event took only 1 hour but Mario didn’t get the 1st place. It was okay… he entered the big 10 at least. Kinda happy and proud I got a friend who stands on the stage there.

His family went home while the rest of us (Mario, the 2 friend from Binus, Erik, Livia, Ian and me) moved to Hyper-square (again) for dinner. We also met Alvin, Andru, Otto, Je and other ex-Aloy friends there. The 1st three performed acoustical band. We had dinner with Toge, Anita, Babi and Miming, too. We all went home by 11 p.m. and I was all tired and sleepy but I think Mario had the hardest day. He only ate a little and he went back to Jakarta that very dawn. No wonder if he was lying all day today. He must be very tired but I guess it was worth it. The big 10 from 290 body built men. What a record!

I guess that was the end of the week. I started this week with another business, met Jesen for lunch and coffee today with Livia, Sandy and Ian too. Then meeting with client was successful. And accompanied Tessa looking for present for her boyfriend in IP completed my day. I am all tired and sleepy but still got some homework to do. Glad I got Kings of Convenience CD to accompany me get thru the night… Ttyl. Thx for reading the post =)