Another Victoria's Secrets

Talk about working, I’ve internship all this summer holiday in Jakarta, in a architecture company named DCM (Denton Corker Marshall) and I’ve seen working life and I’ve been there and I know how boring it is but we all have to do it eventually and I think I’d be so glad to be back to school this week.

I like the working life, I always think of being a career woman but damn how I love to just chat and hang out and do silly things students always do and there are no routines in school life and that’s what made working life so boring. But I’ll get there again next year after graduate. Geez how fast time has passed. One day it was your first day school then the other day it’s your first day working.

But I got a lot this summer. Not only experience and knowledge at work but also holiday and be close to my boyfriend which is a plus becuz we were doing LDR and we lived in a town for a month and it was good and he picked me up after work almost everyday and that what I was always dream of for a relationship, not LDR all the time cuz imagining about something or someone can be boring at some point. And I hate LDR.

So I think I’m so glad the summer is over and the internship is over and the study tour is done and the school is waiting and another chapter begins. I miss my friends but it is okay now I’ve handled my addiction on them. Friends were my ecstasy and it could kill me cuz I have dreams and I have to be able to be on my own cuz my friends stay in their own tracks and I have my own path and I will reach my dreams. So welcome new term, I will let go of the past and live my life to the fullest from now on and not regretting anything anymore.

Things are changing so fast in life sometimes. When you want them to slow down a bit, you are far left behind already and you just have to flow with the beat and then life will lead you into another level in your life and suddenly you are not who you were. You became a different, brand new person and past are dead and friends just come and go and life is about yourself and you are alone in the end.

I dunno how the LIFE works. I’ve had dreams. I’ve given up long time before and I moved on. And suddenly all the things I’ve dreamt of just appear in my life and it’s like some kind of puzzle with a red line connecting between everything that happened in your life. It made sense about a theory of ‘everything happen for a reason’.

Example, I moved to Bandung which I hated most because all of my cool friends were in Jakarta and my whole family is in Jakarta and Bandung is a small town and I was new and they speak Sundanese which I didn’t understand and the Chinese-breed people were so annoying and the natives were keeping distance and I was lost in the middle of nowhere cuz I wasn’t in Chinese nor natives nor blondes side. I’ve no real place where I’d belong to. But when I realized, I met my first love and real friends in Bandung and suddenly the small town became beautiful to me.

And I knew a boy in my elementary school and I liked him so much but he didn’t even notice me and I’ve given up on him long time ago and I moved on and now he suddenly came into my life and became a part of my life and this is weird. God had made this story like Cinderella whom the prince she’d never thought could ever be in love with her.

I dunno how about Cinderella but for me, this is kinda impossible, a dream comes true and I just so afraid that this is only for temporary cuz logical people know that things aren’t come our way that easily and dreams are sometimes just too high to reach and when we finally have it, it would go away and fly like beautiful butterfly or sands in our palm.

They just go cuz nothing is eternal and it’s kind of hard for me to chew it all and swallow it cuz I am a thinker (or a dreamer or an imaginer) and it’s just beyond my logic.

And many other things happened these days so quick and my old dreams are coming true one by one. And I am paced and I just have to race and in race we run with time and decide to lose something to get something bigger or better. And it’s hard to let go of something that you possess and you just have to be brave and get some nerve to do that cuz life goes on and they don’t stop to wait for you and you just have to be realistic that life is short.

Gosh how I’d love to be Peter Pan who never gets old. But so many things in this world I wanna see, try, touch, experience. I wanna travel all around the world. And things aren’t free and you just have to work to earn money.

I went to Singapore 5-12 Aug 2006. It was study tour with 19 people total, included 2 lecturers. I visited many cool places, such as Red Dot Museum, Singapore Art Museum, CHIJMES, China Town, Little India, Orchard Road, Park Mall, NUS campus, Church St. Mary of the Angels, IKEA, The Esplanade and Sentosa Island.

And I went to Ministry of Sound (MOS) in Clarke Quay and also Zouk. The clubs were so cool. The interior, the people (of course, cuz there were so many blondes and also beautiful Asian faces). I like especially the cool breeze they sprayed on us at the dance floor at the Zouk

And I’ve seen great stores and I’ve actually rode on MRT and hey—been abroad by myself! This was my first time going abroad. And I met people, speaking in many languages I don’t understand as Chinese (or Mandarin or Hokkien or anything) and Korean and Japanese and Thai and Malaysian and I dunno what else. Too many languages in my ears but that was okay cuz I was in group so I can communicate well with my surroundings since I got my friends around me. And apparently I was the only fluent-English speaker so they leant on me to communicate with locals or other foreigner.

I like Singapore. Because of the language they use (the English one, not the Chinese or Sing-lish) and because of the safety on going anywhere on your own and because you are free to wear anything and they don’t say you’re a freak and because of the cleanliness (especially the toilet) and because of the road, they are all well-ruled and cars can speed and people are crossing on zebra crosses and because of the great things we can window shop at the stores and because of the technology and its individuality and I dunno what else I should admire from that tiny country.

But I love living in Indonesia. I got all my friends here, my family and my boyfriend. But how about going to a higher level? How about living abroad I’ve always been dreaming of? I don’t live within my friends anymore. Mario taught me to get myself off them. They have got their own ways now. We just need to be in touch sometime and we’ll be okay. I am not actually looking for crowd anymore. I am more into myself, my dreams and my ambition (if there’s any).