Another Victoria's Secrets

I was scheduled to be interviewed by 3 p.m. today for the new job so I went out from my office and headed to the west by taxi. It was stuck at around Jl. Arteri Pondok Indah because it was raining, which caused it flooding, which had stuck cars and buses and I had to stop there, walked a little to the transjakarta bus station--but the officer said the bus was stuck for hours already--so I crossed the road and waited for another taxi to come but it never came until it was started to rain so I had to stepped back for 1 meter or two and talked with a snack seller who told me some numbers of bus going west but then adviced me to go by ojek which I agreed so I took the ojek to my 'future office'. *huff huff. take some breath. then exhale. okay. start again... to be noted: I used only one sentence for the first parragraph here.

So, after this third interview I was having (which took less than 30 minutes, far quicker than the journey I made.) I was confused on how I'd go home since the transjakarta bus was still stuck, but then I decided to go by angkot so I took the M11 Mikrolet to Tanah Abang (not 'Brother Land') but I just found out the track was ended at the market so I had to stop at the market and took a little walk on the muddy now-brown-of-earth-and-full-with-garbage asphalt and by the end of the road I asked a bajaj driver how could I get to Kebon Kacang (not 'Peanut Garden').

So he took me to Jl. Kebon Kacang Raya and I made my way into the Grand Indonesia and met my sister and her bf at Gramedia, in which Dad catched up with us soon after. Then the four of us had nasi campur of Putri Kenanga dinner at the Food Louver. I took a chance to go to the ATM centers to do some transaction so that I shouldn't go to the banks tomorrow.

While we were eating Beatrix my schoolmate popped in with her mom. I was gonna meet her at Plaza Indonesia but it was nice meeting her an hour earlier there, added some time for us to exchange some stories. 


I ran to Forever 21 to buy something for Tessa's upcoming 27th birthday, then hurriedly went across the street to the Plaza Indonesia. We arrived at the CG artspace at the third floor where the opening of the Revisiting the Last Supper exhibition was held in. We walked in, got the catalog book and a complimentary Dewi magz.

After some speeches I took some pics with my artist friend, then had short conversation just like a briefing about our own worlds. It was really nice to see her there, and the fact that she's making her own fame and wealth by the path she chose, it's something that made me really proud. I've never thought that she'd become a famous painter like now. It's good for her.


We were going home by 8.30 but the moment I was going to pass the coin-like pivot door of the art space, I met Tante Milla, once a schoolmate at MADC who is also mother of a friend, who was just arrived. It had been some time since I last met her and it shouldn't be surprising to meet her in art exhibition openings like this one, but still, I was surprised.

So, this is quite a day for me, getting to places by various public transportation I rarely ride on lately (the only one transportation I didn't get on is bus, which I usually take daily.) It had been a very tiring day--from the morning since the meeting I didn't understand what they were talking about the M/E stuff till the super long journey to GI--but the ending was nice, so I now say my grace before sleep. Thank the Lord!

I still think my life has been so great; like this is the time of my life. I've been wondering, how could this happen? Do I really deserve it or is this just a temporary ecstasy? Can this lasts forever, or is this just a phase I'd get through in no time?

I went to my aunt's house for lunch today and she showed me a book of Arvan Pradiansyah, Life is Beautiful. He wrote about values in life I've always been believing in. That to enjoy life, you must truly accept yourself and love your life, no matter how [hard/easy/poor/rich/ugly/pretty/lost/found/separated/collected/ ... *] it is.
*) choose one. or two.. or just fill in the blank. whatever your choice.

You gotta know the key to true happiness: it's always within yourself. I haven't read the book but I think the author thinks the same way I do; that you deserve happiness now, not later, if you truly want it. That happiness is never too far away, it's always within your reach if you are really willing to achieve it.

It's so simple. It's only in your mind. If you want it bad enough, you think you deserve it and don't think too complicated about things, and the universe will help collecting it, delivering them to your path and help you get to the most desirable thing in your life.

The guy I told you before, the one who insulted me, just messaged me couple of days ago and said how sorry he was, insulting me like that. He realized how low and childish his thoughts were. If this happen to any other person, they maybe won't forgive him at all but well, I did. I didn't let his insult get me down or sad or mad. I simply 'look' at him coldly and could only pity him for thinking too narrow. It really prevents him from being happy, if you know what I mean about being truly happy.

I myself think life as a beautiful thing, no matter how it is. It's all about process on getting to a higher level. Life is simply like a school and to get to the next grade you have to get passed the test. So why think so serious? Life is here for us all to enjoy it. Why wait? What are you waiting for? It will never come to you anyway, cuz life is happening right here right now, not later or when you become someone you'll never be.

Joey visited me last night and we talked about a lot of stuff. One of those, is about this 'free mind' stuff. He said, to be happy one can not hold on to his 'character' or 'principal' too much cuz it just border your happiness and limit your space and that, would prevent you on seeing beautiful things hidden in every details of our lives. Just be flexible and life will take it easier on you.

Start to feel the happiness now, start to think wisely here. Cuz life is just gonna happen once and you'll never go back to any phase of your life. Grab every opportunity, chase every dreams. I am now perfectly happy because I am grateful for whatever I have, for the person I am, from the experiences I've got through.

I am grateful all the time and I feel loved at every moment of my life. Life can never be any better than this (I say this to myself everyday), and if it does, well I guess I'm receiving many bonuses from God. Thank the Lord!

1. I was called and being interviewed today and I felt extremely good about the session.
   
2. I tried a new route of transjakarta and travelled alone in the rain during the work hours.
   
3. I went home earlier without being caught in the traffic jam along the Sudirman street.
   
4. I had Joey visited me and we were having a conversation after months passed.
   
5. I have Ara by my side (well, not by my side literally, if you know what I mean.. Lol.)
   

Yesterday I was chatting with a girl friend who lives in Bandung and she asked me one question: 'isn't it hard to be beautiful and sexy?'

It made me think, on how people see me. I've never really thought about this, since I decided to stop caring about what people think, like years ago. I decided to live my life to the fullest my way and yesterday it made me think of me in a more universal way.

You know what, she was right. It's not easy to be both beautiful and sexy (not that I think this way about myself, but most people say so.) It requires an open mind, a big heart, and a deep soul to keep the exquisite gifts stay in their righteous place: holy as within it God resides.

I've been adored and insulted, risen and fell, and I've experienced many more things along in my 25 years of life. And now, today, as happy as I could ever be, I feel loved. By the problems and all obstacles I had passed, I learn how to appreciate what I have now, and learn that those scars and pain I've felt before had made me who I am now.

Though I am myself at my ugliest moments ever, I think. Acne on all over my face, fat tummy, and I just cut my hair short, which I'd always wanted but in reality I don't think it really suits me (feels like getting back to the old days.) But I am in the most grateful moment of my life: I have all the things I want and need in hands.

I realized, by the cases I got yesterday, that I still have many friends who love and care for me in a good way, apart from me being beautiful or not (remember that I'm not that pretty now and beauty does fade away) but people seem to get nicer along the way. Like now that I had the best birthday ever, it's all because of the blessings I got from people around me.

Last night I went to fX to attend Jerry's photography expo by British Council. We had a 7 p.m. appointment and he brought two of his friends along and we went to Foodism to have dinner. Not too long after, my beloved girls Nina and Lita came, also with Lita's boyfriend, Oscar. Then, Eka (Sume's friend from the Ogilvy) came to complete the party. It was too bad Sume couldn't join us but I had so much fun laughing.

We finished by 11 p.m. and when I got home, my junior high schoolmate, Dicky, called and told me to open my facebook account immediately, and so I opened it. One of our schoolmate had insulted me by his nasty words and therefore, had declared a war.

He wrote a comment on a photo of me in which I was conversing with schoolmates on our last reunion. It was a casual gathering, casual photo and they'd posted casual comments. But then, suddenly this kid joined up out of nowhere (to be noted: none of my friends can ever remember him as one of our schoolmates. Means: he was nobody back then.)

He typed some words that described instantly how low and dirty and pervert his mind was. He used disrespectful words he addressed to me. I was mad when I first read it. I've been there so many times my whole life and I thought meeting shallow-minded people aren't my thing anymore. I thought I'm done already with those perverts. But I was wrong.

So this kid, from out of nowhere, wrote how he fancied and desired me, sexually, which was irritatingly disturbed me. He had not only insulted me but also degrading himself in public. I think he should really be ashamed of himself, especially when he calls himself a photographer and wanting to call a big reunion (he added himself his intention was to meet white, cute and overripe girls.) Hah!--What a pervert!

I should've get offended by his insult, but all I could feel was sorry for him. I've just met Jerry Aurum, a professional photographer who taught women to love themselves, who respects women as how God created us. Jerry had produced high-quality photoworks from his respectful mind and eyes through the camera on his hands. He creates only beautiful art because that was how he sees women (and so of other objects) and that's why he's adored and loved among women.

I was thinking, like two-three days ago when Jerry gave me a special birthday present and we had a nice conversation about it short after in Cafe Cartel, fX, that every man should think the way Jerry thinks. But I realized that it's rather impossible, remembering what he said about his masterpiece, Femalography: 'men adore it but only women can understand it'. He's right. The way men see beauty of a woman's body is different with how we women see it.

But, it shouldn't really be that different, I thought, since we're now all grown-ups, now in our mid-twenties, I guess it's time for boys to become men (though I believe not all of them can think openly and respectfully about others, and that's why I highly appreciate those who do.) I'm not usually this picky about having friends. I'm more a liberal person and I befriends with anyone. I appreciate and respect people, whoever they are. But this Andy kid, had verified himself indecent for my friendship.

I could've curse him, or ask my Ara to beat him up, or do more nasty things on him. But I think what I really need to do is to pray for him to get mature a little bit. This kid had asked me an apology by saying those words were only a joke. But I'm sorry having to say this, experiences meeting jerks like him in the past had made me know enough how to differentiate a joke with a dirty mind, and we certainly don't joke by saying (sorry) 'horny' or 'overripe' stuff (and if you really do jokes that way, please exclude me from your circle of friends.) He's just putting himself at the lowest point of a real man's pride. I truly feel sorry for his too-narrow-mind and lack of exercise (to see his body shape and how he couldn't resist his hormones drive.)

I'm saying, that every man should respect woman, apart from having her or not, and in a more general way, respect others. That's the most vital thing to gain trust. And that's what makes one a real gentleman. Otherwise, he doesn't deserve to be called a man at all, and in his minor case, to be called a photographer. I dare to guarantee that he won't ever produce artwork as good or beautiful or successful as Jerry's. This kid couldn't (and wouldn't) see the beauty of this life the way it's supposed to be seen.

So, boys, I ask you for one thing here: use your brain, regardless how small it is, but please, do respect it as one of the gift God had given you. It's not about how big your dick is or how many women you had slept with. If that's how you see perfection or achievement in this world, you may only feel ashamed of yourself for you're not going anywhere with that frame of mind. It's not time to act like a boy anymore; it's time to be a man, and that's how you'd gain respect and pride in your life. I know boys will always be boys, but for God's sake, please be wise on choosing when to act childish.

If your birthday is on:
December 23rd – January 1st = RED
January 2nd – January 11th = ORANGE
January 12th – January 24th = YELLOW
January 25th – February 3rd = PINK
February 4th – February 8th = BLUE
February 9th – February 18th = GREEN
February 19th – February 28th = BROWN
March 1st – March 10th = AQUA
March 11th – March 20th = LIME
March 21st = BLACK
March 22nd – March 31st = PURPLE
April 1st – April 10th = NAVY
April 11th – April 20th = SILVER
April 21st – April 30th = WHITE
May 1st – May 14th = BLUE
May 15th – May 24th = GOLD
May 25th – June 3rd = CREAM
June 4th – June 13th = GREY
June 14th – June 23rd = MAROON
June 24th = GREY
June 25th – July 4th = RED
July 5th – July 14th = ORANGE
July 15th – July 25th = YELLOW
July 26th – August 4th = PINK
August 5th – August 13th = BLUE
August 14th – August 23rd = GREEN
August 24th – September 2nd = BROWN
September 3rd – September 12th = AQUA
September 13th – September 22nd = LIME
September 23rd = OLIVE
September 24th – October 3rd = PURPLE
October 4th – October 13th = NAVY
October 14th – October 23rd = SILVER
October 24th – November 11th = WHITE
November 12th – November 21st = GOLD
November 22nd – December 1st = CREAM
December 2nd – December 11th = GREY
December 12th – December 21st = MAROON
December 22nd = TEAL


* WHITE *
You dream and have goals in your life. You get jealous easily and you don’t react to things easily. You are different and sometimes weird, but everyone loves that in you.

* GOLD *
You know what’s right and what’s wrong. You are cheerful and out going. It’s hard for you to find the one you want, but once you find the right person, you won’t be able to fall in love again for a long time.

* CREAM *
You are competitive and sportive. Don’t like losing and always cheerful! You are trustworthy, and very out going. You choose love carefully, and don’t fall in love easily. But once you find the right one, you don’t let go or a long time.

* GREY *
You are attractive, and active. You never hide your feelings, and express everything that’s inside. But can be selfish at times. You want to be noticed, and don’t like to be treated unequally. You can brighten up people days. You know what to say at the right time, and you have a good sense of humor.

* MAROON *
You are intelligent, and know what’s right. You like to make things go your way, which can sometimes cause trouble for not thinking about other people’s feelings. But you are patient when it comes to love. Once you get a hold of the right person, it’s hard for you to find a better love.

* TEAL *
You are mostly interested in your looks. And have high standards in picking love. You think and make a solution precisely, and hardly make stupid mistakes. You like to be lead, and easy for you to make new friends.

* RED *
Cute and loveable type, you are picky but always in love. And like to be loved. Fresh and cheerful, but can be “moody” at times. Capable with people nice, soft, and that can love you for the way you are. Like people that are easy to talk to, and can make you feel comfortable.

* ORANGE *
You are responsible for you own actions, and you know how to treat people. You always have goals to reach and you are really works hard to get there, you are competitive. Your friends are really important to you and you appreciate what you have, you sometime over react that’s because you are sensitive.

* YELLOW *
You are sweet and innocent. Trusted by many people, and have a strong leadership towards relationships. You make good decision and make the right choice at the right time. And you are always dreaming of romantic relationship.

* PINK *
You are always trying your best in everything, and like to help and care for other people. But you are not easily satisfied. You have negative thoughts, and you look for romantic love like in fairytale.

* BLUE *
You may have low self-esteem, and can be very picky. You are artistic and like to fall in love, but you let your love pass by, by loving with your mind, not your heart.

* GREEN *
You get along well with new people. You are not really a shy person, but sometimes you can hurt people’s feelings by your words. You like to be loved and noticed by your lover, but mostly you are single, waiting for the right person.

* BROWN *
You are active and sportive. It’s hard for other people to become close with you, but you fall in love easily. But once you find out you can’t get something, you give up and let go easily as well.

* AQUA *
Your feelings change suddenly and easily. You are always lonely, and like traveling. You are truthful, but listen and believe other people too easily. It’s hard to find love or you, and get lost in love easily. Sometimes get hurt by love.

* LIME *
You are calm, but easily stressed out. You get jealous easily, and complain over little things. You can’t get stuck into one thing, but you have a capable personality for everyone to trust you and like you.

* OLIVE *
You are warm and light hearted. You seem to flow well with friends and family. You don’t like violence and know what’s right. You are kind and cheerful, but don’t envy other people easily.

* BLACK *
You are challenging, and have the “guts”. But you don’t like changes in your life. And once you make a decision, you keep it that way for a long time. Your love is also challenging, and different.

* PURPLE *
You are mysterious, never selfish and get interested in things easily. Your day can be sad or happy depending on your mood. You are popular between friends but you can act stupid at times, and forget things easily. You go for a person that’s trustworthy.

* NAVY *
You are attractive, and love your life. You have a strong feeling towards everything. And you very easily distracted. Once you get angry at someone, it’s hard for you to forgive them.

* SILVER *
You are imaginative and fun, you love trying new things. You like to challenge yourself and you learn things easily, you’re easy to talk to and you give good advice. When comes to friendship, you find it hard to trust someone, but once you find the right friend, you trust them forever.

The week passes by so quick, I can't believe it's Friday already. I went back from Bandung last Monday night and back to the office by the next day. Mario fetched me that night and we went to Banana Kafe at Darmawangsa Square Citywalk to celebrate his 25th birthday. We had a deep conversation and discussion till 10 p.m. and it was a really nice time we had together.

On Wednesday, I walked out of the office earlier due to the electricity-down and went off to PIM to meet up with random friends I gathered together. First, Jeremy arrived and we walked around the malls to kill time. Jeremy is my neighbor in Awiligar, schoolmate at Maranatha, and my best buddy.

Then, Yohanes came and while I purchased New Moon and Taiko at Gramedia, Mona and her colleague Jodie (who was her schoolmate, too) came. We had a really fun and flowing conversation at Hoka-Hoka Bento till 10 p.m.

And, finally yesterday, I made an appointment with a friend who is going back to his town but then he cancelled it. So, when I thought I was going straight home after work, Jerry Aurum (famous for his Femalography photo session) popped in facebook and we accidentally made appointment that very night. So I went to Senayan City to kill time.

Jerry fetched me up by 7.30 and we went to Anomali for dinner. I was quite surprised that Agam, one of the owners, still recognised me. And the whole cafe felt just right, it has this friendly atmosphere and great coffee and also magnifique pasta to order. We stayed till around 10 there.

What I and Jerry talked about, last night, was something that I don't think I could forget, not in another 20 years, I guess. I was so impressed by his knowledge about people and the 'secret' of life (that's how a photographer should really be, I think, to get into his artwork so well and so passionately). He cherishes woman and I like his idea of 'effortless beauty'. It's something more of beauty from the inside thing, and without any effort you make yourself beauty in other's eyes.

We also talked about other interesting stuff, which not with anyone I could share with, about the law of attraction and perhaps simpler things but yes, not anyone could think the same way. I'm glad we could share the same interest, the same level of philosophy and perspective, to see the fact that I am no one--indeed--while he is--of course--the famous photographer Jerry Aurum!

Made me feel a little bit 'over the cloud' last night, and I cherished the moments we had, the conversation I would not forget, and another knowledge I gained from this smart 32-year-old entrepreneur. I really had fun this week. I hope it would repeat the same way (or even better) next week, and I am soo looking forward for a special birthday gift Jerry was thinking to give me. LOL. I am so blessed, thank the Lord!

I went to Java Jazz Festival 2009 last Friday by the invitation from Yonas, my junior high' schoolmate, who came far from Papua on his holiday in Java. I went there by motorcycle after work (hitched a ride to the JCC) and arrived there around 6 p.m.


I was going to see Jason Mraz's show, since my sister attended it, too, and that I wasn't late, but Yonas didn't like him and didn't wanna see him so I guess I'd better stick with him--since he's the one who gave me the ticket.


So, we went to the basement and watched Balawan and his magic fingers. We also watched a bit of Cindy Bernadette (where I found my neighbor Grendo as her backvocal), Dimi (ex-vocalist of Maliq & d'Essentials), Endah & Resa (where I met my sister & her friends, Eurika & her friends, and some other friends after the Mraz's show), Humania (which I disappointed at their new music arrangement, mostly), Joeniar Arief, and finally Matt Bianco.


I am not really a jazz lover, so when I got sleepy I tried to go home A.S.A.P. But then me and my sister found the stalls they had there are interesting so we stopped by at some merchandising stalls and bought the JJF magnets and an unofficial Jason Mraz's black shirt they sold outside the building.

I came back to the world. LOL. Well yesterday I went to Plaza Senayan with my brother after work. We mingled around the mall we haven't visited for almost a year, then Camui and Erika came and we went to Sushi Tei.

I was surfing the net and found this pic of the most gorgeous male and female on earth. Brad Pitt and Angelina Jolie, as always, are stunning. I am a huge fan of both and love their togetherness ever since Mr. and Mrs. Smith. The pic above was taken from the 81st Academy Awards.

Love her simple yet luxurious black dress, green accessories and hairdo. And love his look on her like they're the happiest couple who are deeply in love. Love, love, love them! (how could one not??)

P.S. Beware of her new upcoming movie Salt as the CIA spy Evelyn Salt, originally written for Tom Cruise.

I watched this movie last night on DVD--bought it about two months ago and forgotten it--and thought this was a nice one. Perhaps because of the background setting (Barcelona, Oviedo.. how could one resist?) or the casting (Penelope Cruz, Scarlett Johansson) or the script writer (Woody Allen) or simply because of the idea of the movie.

Although my name's got a part on the film, I guess I'm less the Vicky there. More a Christina who doesn't know what she really wants, but certain more of what she doesn't want. Here, I don't really know what I want either. But I'm sure of stuff that I don't wish for. Make it more complicated to run anything here. LOL.



This is quite refreshing, such affairs that could happen in real life, packed romantically by Allen in a beautiful Barcelona city. I rate this movie **** (four stars)

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I went to PIM 2 last Sunday with Mom and after very special dinner @ Kenny Rogers' Roasters we walked in to a salon named Budi Setiawan (never heard of it before but, well, it was an emergency..)

I sat on the chair and waited patiently till the hairdresser finish cutting and styling my hair.. and I was satisfied by the result. It's far, far better than the last cut (waved my hair, dunno why--absurd thought after watching Quantum of Solace.)


And, now I start to wear earrings again. Since my ears are now overly exposed.. I am just thinking about adding another accessories after my new haircut. What do you think about another tattoo on my neck?

I am currently love some Indonesian new comers' music. I am listing it down here to share them with you, in case you've never heard them before.