Today, I submitted a resigning letter. This has been quite a surprise to everyone, including myself. I just decided last Friday and now, I did it. I've been thinking hard before taking the decision because my plan was far from this. I planned working here for years, dreaming of what it would feel to be promoted for more than once in a company and about staying in a company for more than 6 months.
But what can we say about God's way? No one knows it, can guess it, nor to argue with it. Dad had taught me to live by His words and not to lean on our own strength and thoughts. And I was born to be contrary, my life path is just out of the ordinary. My life pace is faster than others and I seldom get along with common people.
I talked with two of my bosses today and one of them told me my nature talent is actually in marketing, not writing. I was kinda surprised because I had never thought about it seriously before. He said I could excel, and told me to consider working in that field. It was very nice of him, telling me stuff I might need to know for my personal development.
Actually, I really like my "big" boss. He is such a great, warm person who knows his employees so well although we are not interacting too often. He knows how to run the company, to keep his employees and to sell the products. He just owns it all. In the other hand, the other boss who I work to isn't quite like that. Too bad this one isn't that smart in keeping people's trust and his employees' loyalty.
Anyway, I am not being hacked by other company or quitting just because I can't work with my team, as what I think people are thinking about. I do have a lame team, but when it comes to professionalism, it won't be a matter to me. I've been complaining about their stupidity in twitter, but I think my bosses misunderstood me.
All I asked was an additional member with equal skill to help me out with the workload, because it was quite a hell to work the magazine "alone". I had never meant for my team members to be fired, especially because of me. It is not as easy and is another karma I have to bear, but I think I delivered the message wrongly. I think my boss thought I had a personal problem with my team.
Well maybe I am not a really ideal type of an employee myself, having plans and concepts all the time on my mind, I am more a thinker rather than a doer. But I love working. It's like a natural thing for me, to work properly, thanks to Catholic school's education. But also due to the discipline I've been taught, it is crucial for me to have environment who value the same principals with me.
Somehow, despite all the lousy team and static salary (I was promised to be raised in 1-2 months but got none until now, 4.5 months later. It wasn't about the amount I was talking about. It was about keeping your promises and winning your employees' heart--not just winning an argument!) which I can still live with, I am directed to a brighter future since God had opened a promising new door for me.
Mom said, my learning process in this company has done. I need to follow God's path to go a step higher, being trusted for greater responsibility. I honestly feel sad to leave since I really love the job, the magazine, the friends and the whole package of the company. And I am not fully prepared for another business kind of life and all of its uncertainty. But I have faith that if God lead me to this, He will also provide me with all of the weapons I'm gonna need and the strength to get thru it all.
So, say goodbye now to Tori Tunggono the junior editor, I am now Tori Tunggono the interior designer, consultant, concept maker, still a blog writer, soon-to-be book author and now, a marketer by nature--or so my boss said. Time to go, fellas, but we shall not worry. God will take care of us, His beloved children and He will provide us all the food and glory we deserve. Just keep the faith cuz God is good!
