Another Victoria's Secrets

Mom had been complaining about this from a long time. My family said that I value friendship more than I'm supposed to. My brother said I always talk about my friends but never talk about myself. Well, after I think about that, I think it's true. I've been hiding behind my friends to hide myself.

Like last night when Judy and Cheryl asked me to come out late at about 10 p.m. After a small argue with Mom, I left home and speeding up to meet my girls, because I failed to meet them the night before. I went to Beer Garden SCBD, then moved to the 365 Eco Bar in Kemang for them and had some catching ups for Judy is living in Tasikmalaya and we had so much to talk about.

I guess it all came from when in junior high, there were moments when I got absolutely no friends at all. I appreciate and value every friendship offered highly ever since, being nice to every friend I have because I know how it is to have no friend. I think I need to concentrate more on me, not them.

For my last experience, Cheryl had been the angel who was sent at the lowest point of my relationship with my last boyfriend. She is now the best of my friends ever, who gradually teached me how to have fun and laugh again, who fixed me out without she ever notices. I am pulled back from the scattered pieces because of her, and that's why she stays in my heart.

I dunno what I would do without my friends, so I try to give as much for them in return, knowing that everybody needs a friend at some point of their lives. Cheryl never knew how her invitation to meet up that night on February 2012 had been her first help of my therapy and I just realized how her small hello can lasts long in my heart.

I would never know how I'd help someone by giving my friendship, so I'd just give it. That is why I always try my best to be a friend to everyone. I do not want anyone to feel rejected and so alone. Everyone in this world has to know, that they have angels taking care of them in form of a friend. ;)

We were supposed to go to Judy's birthday feast last night, but it was cancelled due to the heavy traffic she was having all day on the way to Jakarta. The workers of many factories were having a demonstration all over the toll road (read it here). So she was super tired when she finally got to Jakarta and cancelled the plan. But I was still coming to get Agatha and Cheryl anyway at around 10 p.m.


So we dressed up and waited for Winnie, then headed to Barcode at La Codefin to meet with Mia, Melinda and Tasya. They are Agatha's friends. We were there for just half hour, then headed to Senayan City for the Domain. There, we met Rudi and his friends Michael 'Ekong', Adi, Dewa, Eko and others. Those whom I met in Sobbers last week.


I also asked Audie and Tyo--friends of Ryan 'Iyank' whom I met in Bandung when they visited last month--to come, so they came with Adhe, made our group merrier. So we stayed there till around 4.20 a.m. and went home tired, sleepy and smelled cigarette smoke. I hate that, but I love the fun I had all the night with the best girls in the world! Thank God for ever giving me them ;)

So Ben, Mom and I went to Jakarta last night and stayed over at Cipete. Today we went to Joglo at midday and met the family for lunch. We were gathered there to have a family prayer, together with Oma Magda and Oma Martha's family, my grandma's sisters I rarely met. We actually never celebrate the Chinese new year, but in order to respect the elders, we were dressed in red. Well, most of us were.

At about 5 p.m. Bobby and Rachelle picked me up and we headed to PIM. We had dinner and some window shopping there, then moved to Sinou Kaffee Hausen at Panglima Polim to chill. It had been more than two months since I last met Rachelle, so it was really great to see her again and catch up with a lot of stuff. Thank God for granting me such great friends both in Bandung and Jakarta. I am so much blessed for that! :)

Oh, and Happy Lunar New Year to all who celebrate!
May we all have a prosperous year ahead! GBU all!!

Yesterday was a very busy day for us. Mom was the wedding organizer for Michell and Sisca's wedding so she got busy from the very morning. I went to Cathedral for the holy matrimony at midday and met the family of both sides. Michell's family is already a family to us, living as our neighbor and his mother is Mom's best friend. 

I went to PVJ this afternoon to meet Tante Selly, an old schoolmate in the interior design school. She was with her colleague Zaki and our other schoolmate, Vincent. It had been years since I last met Tante Selly and Vincent (before meeting Vincent two months ago) so it was a very nice reunion we had.

We walked around the mall for a while, shopping jackets for both Tante Selly and Zaki, then after the guys went home, Tante Selly and I had dinner at Black Canyon again, but this time it was just the two of us.

On the way home, I visited Sapulidi, after abandoning the place for almost a month now. It's just weird that I went there almost everyday during late November to early December and never go there again now. So I said hi to the crews there and got home before midnight. I even sang three songs on stage with Kanggep's jazz band there. It was really fun!

I am re-activating my Tumblr account and gonna start quoting there instead of at my Quotes blog. You can still find my old quotes at the old blog, but find the new, fresh ones in Tumblr. It's the minimalist me there. Enjoy!

My sister bought this mint nail polish and I'm loving it so much. It will so much match with my kebaya I'm gonna wear this weekend. So cute yet so fresh!

I'm so much into editing pictures, so here's my pictures with my family during our visit to Jakarta on the first weekend of 2012. We went to Foodism at Senayan City for dinner on the first Saturday of the year and tried Angel's new blue and yellow filters for camera lens. That was fun :)

Promised you to blog about this, so here's about last Saturday. I planned to stay home, but Maria and Agatha called me to go out, so at around 11 p.m. I drove to Erginn, found the place so full that I had to park on the main street cuz cars overwhelmed the parking space.

Agatha was already there with her schoolmate Anti (who happens to be my sister's schoolmate too--they went to the same elementary school) and Anti's friends. Maria came with Sally, her college friend who lives in Jakarta but was visiting for the wedding party she attended earlier.

We met Roro and Danis too somewhere in the crowd, but decided to accept the call from Rian to go to Sobbers. We parked the other cars at Agatha's house then went to Sobbers by my car. We then met Rian and El there, who were attending the occasion of their friend Fahmy's birthday. There was also Erwin their friend, and we met other friends there.

It was superfun to me, to be compared to my last party at Domain, Jakarta, where I got introduced to that "pathetic low guy" I blogged about before. Things got out of control a little bit and we ended up staying out till 5 a.m.--us four girls and the four guys we just met plus Ryan our friend--but I say this was a very fun night. I hope more like this are to come :)

Someday you'll gonna realizeOne day you'll see this through my eyesBut then i won't even be thereI'll be happy somewhereEven if i can't
I knowYou don't really see my worthYou think you're the last guy on earthWell I've got news for youI know I'm not that strongBut it won't take longWon't take long
Chorus

Coz someday, someone's gonna love meThe way, i wanted you to need meSomeday, someone's gonna take your placeOne day I'll forget about youYou'll see, i won't even miss youSomeday, someday

But nowI know you can't tellI'm down, and I'm not doing wellBut one day these tearsThey will all run dryI won't have to crySweet goodbye

Chorus

Coz someday, someone's gonna love meThe way, i wanted you to need meSomeday, someone's gonna take your place wo oh ohOne day I'll forget about youYou'll see, i won't even miss youSomeday,

I know someone's gonna be thereSomeday, someone's gonna love meThe way, i wanted you to need meSomeday, someone's gonna take your placeOne day I'll forget about youYou'll see, i won't even miss yousomeday, somedayoh yeah yeah

This is Mom and Tante Astrid, ready to go to a Javanese wedding party last Saturday. I didn't go with them, I just made sure Mom was doing great and took picture of them before they left. But hours later, I sneaked out and threw myself to a small party (that gone wild, I'll post about it next) with my girl friends at Erginn. Well, I think I'm gonna cherish these pictures cuz Mom looks really great on those!

I won some online contest from Clarins last month and got this package of one lipstick and one UV protection gel as the prize today. I had never tried this product, so it's good to have them for free. Maybe you can all try liking the fanpage and can get some free giveaway too! Who knows ;)

I got these titles mostly from my sister, and watched the last one on HBO today. I say they are all great touching movies and I like all of them. The quirkiness of the first three is fantastic, and except for no.2 and no.3, they were based on novels. I highly recommend you guys to watch these!

1. Up In The Air


The movie is about the life of a motivation speaker who does a lot of traveling without burdens. His life is spent mostly on the air and airports that he doesn't have a 'real life'.

2. The Kids Are All Right


Ever imagine how a life with gay moms? These two kids wondered about their biological father, whose sperm was the donor to each of their moms. In the end of the day, it's still a family thing.

3. The Art Of Getting By


A kid was aware about the emptiness of life, that everybody will eventually be dead, and that's when he found a girl who change his perspective and began to enjoy life.

4. One Day


I personally love this movie for its tragic drama. Love between best friends over 20 years, this epic story is packaged in an unusual way, telling the love on only one specific day of each years.

5. Sundays at Tiffany's

There ain't no such a perfect guy, except in fairy tales... and your own imagination. But what if this special imaginary friend comes alive? Would you choose your 'real' fiancé or the one from your mind?

Got this image from facebook, but forgot who posted it. This really shouldn't be the guideline for you to choose a religion, but it's pretty much a fun way to classified all those spiritual thingy these days. Don't get offended, this is just for fun!

Oh, by the way, I was directed straightly to the boring generic Christian. Well, I guess I am. Lol.

This is one hilarious thing that keeps me and Maria laughing every time we remember it. So last week I went to Jakarta and got introduced to a guy, let's call him MK. So we danced at the club and he ended up driving me and Cheryl back to Winnie's place where we stayed over.

Last night, I told Maria about all of the story about this guy and showed her his picture I got from the BBM Contact List. Maria got all hysterically laughed when she saw him and there she went, blew up all of the story about him.

So this very same guy who was hitting on me last weekend was the same guy who tried to hook up with Maria but turned her down when they finally met. I mean, how on earth could a guy commenting on girl's acne and the salon she's having facial at? Is it really guy's business which salon she's going to? And what's with thin body and dark skin?

Really, should a girl get a whitening injection JUST for a guy who can not accept her the way she is?

I think this guy had hit the limit way too far and he sounds so ridiculous to me. If he doesn't want her, just leave. Bullshitting any girl with sweet words and woos on skype and commenting on physical matter when finally meet in flesh is certainly uncool.

Today, Maria twitted "I wonder wat u gonna do when u know tat a gal tat u were hitting on is my bff! Hahaha.. U r such a desperate player! Keep flirting around.." and he, whether it's incidentally or not (but we suspect it to be in purpose) twitted "I already knew, that's why I stop."

Okay, too much drama here now!

But then again, it's good that he knew. I could tolerate nothing more from that guy actually, after being too straightforward only a couple hours after we were being introduced to each other. I mean, come on, I wouldn't mind a kiss when there's a mutual feeling being shared. But stealing kisses from someone you just met who were drunk? Come on man, that's just low!

I am wondering if there are many guys like this one around. Makes the world a scarier place for girls like me and Maria--and many other single girls in this whole world, I believe. I just wish that this case would stop this MK guy from hitting on girls randomly, especially with that low kind of attitude he had shown to both me and Maria. Tho they were different actions, still it showed to us how pathetic he really is.

I am so glad he doesn't bothering me with any chat no more, being aware that he was not in a condition to do such things anymore, perhaps feeling stupid when he found out that Maria is my bestie. Well, I hope more boys are using their head and manners better, for this world is already lacking of men in number, leave alone gentlemen. Lol. I hope this guy gets the lesson well ;)

1. Someday - Nina


2. Here I Am - Leona Lewis


3. Karena Ku Sanggup - Agnes Monica


4. Little House - Amanda Seyfried


5. Gravity - Sara Bareilles


Okay. I know they are all too mellow, but I'm practicing my voice so I need this high-pitched songs to experience with. Well I hope I'm not getting too mellow here. Lol.

Friends come and go, and in 2011, I got Cheryl and Rachelle filled my days with laughter, and were by my side thru the hard days. For them two, I made this collage of friendship. Thanks to you, girls!


This is just a way I value and cherish our friendship, I hope I can give more in the future. I just love these two girls so much :) -xoxoxo

I think this artist, Ben Heine, is really talented. For I am never good at this, I think he's really good in quick sketching. Enjoy!

Nothing can ever make me dislike The Cranberries. I had been their big fan since my junior high years and now that they're making a new album, I'm instantly in love with Tomorrow. Here's what I made from some of the lyrics:

Got the info from Maria yesterday, she and I were captured in this video when we watched the soft launching of Demi Ucok movie. We were the ones who said "Hi" and "Cheers!" the longest in this video. Finally we're in youtube! LOL.

If anyone of you play The Sims Social in Facebook, you will know what I'm saying about "friendship level" here. I recently feel that I'm losing a close friend, who used to be my best friend along 2010-2011. I knew this was coming when my uncle foreseen it by his special ability of psychic stuff.

I felt this first when she started acting weirdly toward me, there were some bitterness in her words and I could feel that. Instead of telling it to my face, she pretends to be all okay but couldn't help stinging me by her words. She said yes, but holding a "no" behind my back. It's just fake.

I have so many friends during my 27 years on earth and I've dealt with all kinds of acquaintances, friends, good friends, close friends, BFFs, and I've dealt with awkward friends, sort of friends and ex-friends, too (they are terms used in The Sims Social). I have quite a sensitive sense about how people feel by their reaction around and toward me, so I can tell without seeing the friend level bar like in the game.

This ex-friend of mine, I can truly feel how it degrading from BFF down to awkward friend, especially by her choice of words. I can feel the insincerity in it, tho at first I spent too much time on evaluating myself: what did I do wrong, what was my fault, etc.

What troubled me more is that she has a group of friends who act quite weirdly toward me also--or maybe I'm being too cautious and suspicious here. I feel like I'm losing not just one, but a group of good friends. I feel rejected and casted away. Being a Piscean (super-sensitive and melodramatic) and a sanguine, it is such a big thing to me to lose a friend, let alone a group of it.

But, it doesn't matter anymore. The fact is, she is just not good enough to receive my attention and has not big enough heart to accept my friendship love. I still have so many other friends who want and value my presence, who deserve my caring and my love. I still have so much love to give out, so I just don't give a damn about people who doesn't want it. It's their problems, not mine, since I'm giving it all for free and sincerely.

I'm not calling this friend a fake. I'm just saying that she's being insincere to me. Sometimes feelings given aren't as much as feelings taken. Sometimes it's just not mutual... so what?
Like what is in relationships, we just need to get over with it, move on, and open heart for new (and for sure are better) people to come into our lives. I'm moving on ;)

I didn't make new year resolution last year, felt not as spirited as when Dad was still around and when I lived in Sudirman Park. So, I'm whipping myself to be more spirited today and make a new resolution for my self. Here it goes:

1. Reach my dream 1: Go to Melbourne, Australia
2. Reach my dream 2: Finish on my novel
3. Take a postgraduate study abroad
4. Get a steady job
5. Live healthier life; eat healthier food 
6. Drink less beers
7. Go to sleep before midnight
8. Get up before 8 a.m.
9. Exercise 3 times a week
10. Be organized and self-discipline
11. Donate and volunteer more
12. Be a better person inside and out :)