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I re-watched the 2011 flick The Adjustment Bureau last night, just to remind myself of why I really liked the movie because I couldn't remember the plot. And there it goes, the story came back to me: I see this movie as a reminder of how my life has been. It may not include men in hat and Doraemon's dokodemo doors (the pink Anywhere Door), but I can relate to the message this movie is implying.
In the movie, Thompson told David that he was supposed to reach his maximum potential, possibly his soul mission, if he wasn't with Elise. It's the same way with Elise: she could be the best person in her field should he live apart from David. Yet, the lovebirds choose love over going after their dreams. It's romantic, really. But the question is: is love alone enough?
Harry Mitchell, one of the guys from the bureau, told David that he couldn't be with Elise because she is enough. She would make David feel so complete that he didn't have to run for presidency and so with Elise--she wouldn't want to pursue her career in dancing if they were together...
(I actually don't agree with this concept. People in love would--if not should--encourage each other to become the best version of themselves. If they don't have kids, for example, they can do even so much more! But that's another argument to make for another day.)
Well I can't help but wonder if this is what happens with my life now. Should I find someone suitable to marry, I wouldn't be fit to go on with my life task... or whatever 'they' had prepared for me.
At the end of the film Harry said: Most people live life on the path we set for them, too afraid to explore any other. But once in a while people like you come along who knock down all the obstacles we put in your way. People who realize freewill is a gift that you'll never know how to use until you fight for it. I think that's the chairman's real plan. That maybe one day, we won't write the plan, you will.
It's about free will, or what Thompson implied as "the appearance of free will." I feel that I no longer had the choice since 2012, when this inter-dimension journey began. It had given me the 2015 "Gerbang Nuswantara" book, the 2018 "Candi Nuswantara" sequel, and finally, hopefully, the 2020 "Jagat Nuswantara" as the trilogy's final. It had also delivered me meetings with wonderful, great people along the way. And, all the experiences, the knowledge, all the treasure nobody could ever take from me.
But in return, it seems like 'they' take away my permission for romance. I could say, the last boyfriend I had was in 2010, which ended with misery that he double-timed me with 3 other girls during the last 8 months we were together. It wasn't that I became traumatic or something like that, but all the other guys I met after that were all disasters, unavailable, or simply what they call as 'karmic relationship'. So I took the message well. I'm not even looking for a relationship now. I'm so much married to my job.
This isn't a ranting or nagging or that I'm complaining. I'm just saying that this movie The Adjustment Bureau hit me so deep, that made me first somehow understand why I'm not allowed to be in romantic relationship like other 'normal' people. I don't know where I'm going after this, but I know I'm going to do something larger than life.
