Well, here I am, back in Bandung suddenly. Mom called me on Thursday almost midnight, shouting in panic that I had to come to Bandung on Friday, no matter what, because 14th was the last day we could sign the selling contract. The thing is, my work is still not done till end of the year. But I'm resigning anyway.

So I bought the ticket on last minute, packed the most important stuff to take to Bandung, and went by Citilink airlines, arrived in Bandung on midday yesterday. Aunt Agnes and Bent fetched me, then we fetched Clemy who just came from Jakarta and went to see Mom at Cisangkuy for lunch. We went to the notary at 2.30 p.m. and signed the deal.

But the things aren't done yet. We still have some documents aren't done yet and need time to get them from the government bureaus. Then we gotta pack our stuff from the house that doesn't belong to us anymore. And the hardest part is, to find new house immediately. Everybody knows it's not that easy to find a house, because house is a personal thing and different to each person. We just can hope we can find the perfect one in our budget.

Anyway, I can say that I'm leaving my job in Bali just like that. My boss is leaving to France for two weeks and I left before he does. He said he was disappointed (of course he is) but family isn't an excuse to leave job. He said my reasons are bullshit and that I've already planned this thing. He clearly doesn't know my situation and he probably just doesn't care.

Well probably for some people, family isn't really that important. And for people who have money, they can always pay other people to do the packing up, pick whichever house on their budget, and moving-out-and-in can be so easy. For us, it's another matter. Family is important and we need to hold on to each other during life change like this one.

Deep down I keep on thinking whether I'm doing the right thing; to abandon my responsibility in Bali and left them all to Dewi by herself. But all people who know my mother say that I'm doing the right thing because we have to have priority. My mom is a very panicking and stressful person and she needs support from people who are stronger than her, and I am taking the responsibilities not just because I am the first child but also because my siblings are still in their jobs.

I know that most people see me as such an easy going person and seem like never involved in difficult situation. Probably my boss sees me as such an irresponsible person now. People will say how unprofessional assistant I am. I hate to know that people are thinking negatively toward myself. But I know God has His own plan to make me go to Bandung in such rush. I believe He got bigger and better plans for us...