Three years ago today my dearest Dad left us forever. It was a really shocking experience but we let him go and we try to understand God's plan on us. Turned out we are much stronger now, both as individuals and as family.

I went to Anna's room last night and together with Rivan each of us told our own stories about losing our loved ones. Anna lost her mother from cancer on 2003 and Rivan lost both of his parents in 2 years time. It really is true that (most of the time) we don't know what we got till it's gone.

I was really lucky because I was my daddy's little girl and Anna spent most of her time with her mother before she went for good. But for Rivan who took things from granted, I know that regret is a really heavy feeling to carry in our lives.

Thankfully I don't have to live with that burden. But for my siblings, they faced the loss with different perspective. They weren't there when he breath his last and the doctor and nurses gave up giving him pumps on his chest. But then again, it is important to know when to let go.

Letting go, is not an easy thing to do. I've been there, too. But with a strong will and persistence, nothing is impossible. In this case, letting go of someone who went for good, is important not only for their souls (so they can go on and aren't longer attached with this world) and also for our own good.

The most essential thing here is to forgive and ask for their forgiveness, so no debt are left between us and them. This sounds so easy to do, but I know for some people it takes a lot more to do. Once we let go, our steps to go forward is lighter, our hearts happier, and more blessings come to our lives.

Anyway, I was gonna talk about the past three years after my father's death. He always taught us to rely only on God, to follow His path and flow with His river. He taught us to prioritize Him above anything else, and He showed us how his faith, hope and love to God had brought the family to the point we are now.

And God is keeping His words. He promised my father He would take care of the family and He does. He proved His power and love by giving us so many more than we could ever think of. He is repaying so many times more of every single deed my father did in his life to the family and also to his soul now in Heaven.

I think this is the true purpose of life. To love and serve God by living our lives well. All good deeds we do to our neighbors are counted and it just adds so many more of our quality as a person and for our souls. At the end of the day, said Mother Teresa, is the matter between you and God. Not with anyone else in the world.

Even though my father didn't leave so many amount of money for us, the most valuable thing he left was what cannot be taken away from our hearts; faith and dignity. We learn to struggle and survive. We had been through laughter and cry, joy and pain, and we are still here, solid as a family tho we are far away apart. We know, with God on our side, there is nothing impossible. And I am glad because my father led us the way.