Alice was stunned. She was petrified. Alex had said it. That one word she had been avoiding the most. So many handsome and eligible guys passed her life just like that once they say that word. Their beauty then meant nothing for her once the word was spoken.

Alice thought Alex was different. Alice thought he was her final destination, the reason she is still breathing the air in until this very second. Alice thought… no, Alice didn’t think. She wanted Alex to be like that. Because Alex was almost perfect a figure of a guy for her… well, Alex was perfect.

Up until this morning. Everything was running perfectly. Their marriage is waiting impatiently; Alex had proposed to her two months ago and the date was set—five weeks from now.

Yet Alex had broken all of Alice’s enthusiasm about their big plan—the dream of their future together they’d plan perfectly… Alice knew that there was no such thing that is perfect in this world. Her mom had warned her from her childhood about this a million times before, worried that her daughter’s imagination would someday kill her.

And her mom was right. Alice who was still high in spirit until this morning now lies still on her bed. Like a dead body she hadn’t move an inch from fifteen minutes ago. She is thinking. Wondering. Speculating on her brain.

If she leaves Alex now, she knows she would get her freedom back. The imaginative and idealistic Alice—who people think as a weird—has an abnormal fantasy of her ideal lifestyle.

If she retreats now, it wouldn’t be too late. Only the down payment of the building, dress and catering she’d lost. She hadn’t paid the others. There is still time. And Alice would get her career back in the magazine editorial, which she left two months ago for Alex.

Alice would be back to the important fashion shows, and the A-class party invitations would be sent again. Alice would be busy with her work from the morning till dusk, and busy with her networking schedule at the malls at night… or even till dawn.

If she rethinks about it, “How a foolish I was!” she is mad at herself. Right when her career was getting up and her name starts to be known in the fashion world, Alex came to her life and proposed to her. And Alex is the only person whose proposal Alice consider until now. Dozens of other men failed before they started the battle because of only her one idealistic condition.

Even Terrance, her crush from the high school, had to accept that she had rejected him—despite the fact that she was crazily in love with him for more than eight years. Only because of that one silly criteria she holds until now.

Because she thought Alex was different. “But actually all men were the same,” she mumbles without an expression. Her happiness had been scattered. Her pain was almost unfelt. It had been years she held up on life like this: forcing herself to forget a guy she liked and all of the feelings she had because of they break her number one rule of life.

She felt numb to the guys and the tantalizing happy wedding day every girls in her twenties long for. Alice had never expected a wedding; it had been her consequence from holding tight onto her principal. Alice had always been ready to be a single fighter and a successful career woman in the capital city.

But when Alex came, her concept was collided. Alice started to think about weddings when he came asking her hand for a marriage. Alice thought he was her destiny; her soul mate… but that was her thought, only her expectation.

In reality, Alex wants that thing, too—the main thing Alice had been avoiding. But if Alice leaves him now, would she feel this happy for the rest of her life? Alex knows her the best; he can always make her laugh whenever she feels sad. Alex always helps her getting onto her feet softly back on the ground whenever her imagination had brought her too far…

If she leaves him now, would there be another smile on her lips? Or would she become a worker robot who is never tired in the cruel traffic jobs in the city? Alice had always thought to put her work above everything; her achievement in career had been her source of pride all these times. She had never think that she would leave them all for a man. But if the man were Alex, she wouldn’t think twice to sacrifice her dream. She can make her other dream come true then—her dream of love.

Now, should Alice really sacrifice everything—the life principal she always holds up to—only for Alex? Alice doesn’t dare to leave him. Not for him, not for her either. She knows her life would be miserable without Alex by her side. But should she break the wall of principal now? The foundation was too tight to be damaged; the basics she had settled since she was ten.

Alice was confused—she couldn’t choose. She didn’t put the principal only because of trivial reasons. The trauma she had watched all her life made her tenacious for her choice. But now when Alex wants it, should she break her pride and ruin her life for love? Should she really sacrifice herself for Alex until nothing is left of her? Alice never wants to live regretfully like her mother who left her life to be married with her father. And now Alice is about to be going the same way.

Is this a karma? Is the principal only a silly thing she had been thinking too much about it? Or is it the basic thing that had made her an Alice?

Can Alice ever make a choice—even if it's a very difficult one?